When you say nothing at all.....

There are times when everything in one’s life is smooth with a sort of rhythmic feel to it n one marvels at the blessing that it is, with joy in the heart and a spring in the step…every little thing gets in to place beautifully and is just as it should be and the canvas is colorful and vibrant. You are happy.

And then there are times when the complete opposite happens…where one is dragged down by the demons that there are, and it all seems like the "Universe has conspired against you" and even the things that are otherwise “right”, or at least alright… tend to go wrong..

Doesn’t anyone notice? Doesn’t someone, anyone care? Can’t they tell what you are going through?

Happiness-sorrow……good-bad….it all goes on. And you feel every bit of it. Inside, outside, everywhere. And try to live the good and bad as same…it’s a struggle…between you and nature. To see if you can hold your own or be swept away…So much happens in this tussle….nothing really happens…you feel you are going through battle and yet the world, your world, even the inner circle…seems to be unaffected by it…

And one does gives out signals. Everyone does…in their own ways. Some are heard, understood, some aren’t. And you keep wondering…can’t anyone see? Are they blind? Isn’t it ob? Doesn’t anyone care?

What were you thinking? After all, it is not like the earth would shatter because things are not going right for you. Or the sky would give out some signal to tell the world about your plight… Even if it feels like death to you, it doesn’t really matter… the world goes on. The world doesn’t care. In the larger scheme of things and lives, you mean NOTHING…

What an unsettling thought….here we give so much importance to ourselves…but nature has a way of reinforcing the most uncomfortable truths sooner or later…This whole concept of “I mean nothing” doesn’t sit very well with us in the scheme of self grandeur that we create for ourselves, does it? …and it gives us another reason for melancholy, another grudge against the universe…

It is a battle yes, but a personal one. One that has to be fought by oneself, for oneself. Because everyone is probably fighting their’s and no one really cares.

You might be unhappy, tired, hungry, rudderless or broken. But the world moves on. It is just the way it is.You have to keep yourself going ..may be for the world's sake ... It is business as usual......ok i know i crapped a lot here in this post but whatever ........


PS:creation of bored mind :P